The Lil Darling

Okay...I can't help myself. She just kills me.

I am SO enjoying this baby girlness--I can't even describe the joy.

One of the best parts for me is dressing her in as many dresses as possible. And of course, she's got to have all the accessories like tights and bows.

Before having Elliana, I was convinced I didn't want anymore children. I've been pregnant four times in the last six years and during that time I've either been pregnant or nursing. That's a lot of time people. Thirty-six months preggo out of seventy-two. You do the math.

But now, I don't know. I mean, is this really my last time? I just can't say it is. And wouldn't it be so great if I could give her a sister.

Because of course, I'd get a girl next time right?

Right?

Ha ha. Chances are slim...

But maybe still worth going for...

In the future...

Because as the husband says, "We're in downshift mode now-we're getting old. And we're tired."

Yeah, yeah...but if I could just put in my order, I'd have one more girl so that Ellie could have a sister and then everyone would have a friend.

And I'd selfishly get to go through all of this baby girlness just one more time.

Just one more time.